Monday, January 07, 2019

And so the adventure begins...

I say this at the being of each year... You can start over at anytime, but there is something about the new year that is so deeply ingrained in us that makes us feel like new years day is the prefect time to reinvent our selves and our surrounding spaces. So with that said it's time for The January Cure , my favorite way to start off the new year. This year we are moving into a house so I look forward to having a calm space before the move. Also I am more that sure it will help me purge before the big move.

I started it a little late, Mikey was home for two weeks and so we just enjoyed watching moves and playing games on my time off, after work that is. Lucky guys gets a holiday break, when I am at the most busiest and can't take any time off.  On Friday as soon as he went back to work I started day one .. Clean out one drawer, well if you know me I didn't stop at one so I cleaned every single drawer in the house. Day two was a list of projects, easy peasy I knocked that out and posted it on the fridge so Mikey can see it an tackle them on his days off. Day three was a little more labor intensive, deep clean the bedroom, get fresh flowers, strip the bed, wash the linens, pillows too ( I skipped we replaced all our pillows for the new year) clean mirrors, vacuum etc. I do that every week it is so nice to have a nice clean bedroom at the end of each night! Day four which is today is putting out an out box or bag, coincidentally I started an out bag for clothes and accessories last week. I love the idea of an out box for everything else. I have a feeling I will be getting rid of a lot of things I no longer want and or need. Saturdays and Sundays there are no assignments, so I downloaded and printed out the  January cure calender  and filled in those days with the list of projects so either one of or both of us can tackle them on his days off.

I love Apartment Therapy I spend hours on the site readying articles and gathering ideas. I found some great articles with moving and packing tips too. Usually packing is not something I look forward to but for this move I really can't wait. I am looking forward to getting into a bigger space and rumor has it that my oldest child is moving in with us! I am so happy to have her around for a while! I knew it would happen sooner or later, we all go back to our parents at least once in our lifetime. Hopefully she takes advantage of this chance to become financially independent. Some people offered unnecessary opinions on the subject , but seriously folks we have one job as parents and that's to do it what ever it takes at whatever age to help our children succeed in life. You don't stop being a parent when they turn 18. Okay enough ranting I have too much to do today!

Tuesday, January 01, 2019

No New Year New Me Here!

Work was delightfully slow yesterday and I had every intention of writing out a long list of new year's resolutions. Then I decided to look up the difference between resolutions and goals, Resolutions are a firm decision to do or not to do something, a goal is the object of a persons desired ambition or effort :an aim or desired result. So since a goal involves intention setting, planning, preparing and taking realistic action my only new years resolution is to set goals for my self this year. 
I started with a small list of attainable goals with dates, then I wrote a plan of action under each one, For example lose twenty pounds by June 21, by exercising, eating healthy meals, and cutting back on dairy and sugar. I also set a couple long term goals like getting off my medication by the end of the year, my weight loss is crucial to helping me achieve this one. 
In the middle of this process Mikey walked in he made me watch some videos about manifestations and meditations, nothing new to me I've been dabbling in both for years. We had talked about it in the past but he laughed it off, so I figured he wasn't ready so I dropped the subject. Anyhow we had a long talk after wards about life, setting goals and mindset. He seems ready to change his mindset, which makes me so happy he was in a very dark place a few weeks ago. We wrote out a few goals for us as a couple and finished out our individual goal list. 
To ring in the new year we made two huge charcuterie platters, opened a bottle of wine and watched Bandersnatch.
This year I am not going to make false promises to my self I don't want to be a "new me" I like the me I am today i just want to be a better me mentally and physically I just want to be healthy. 

Sunday, December 30, 2018

Let's have some coffee & catch up.....

I can't believe we are only a couple of days away from 2019 and everyone keeps asking if I'm ready. Ready for what???? The only thing I am ready for is all the blessing coming my way this next year.
Enough about the new year lets catch up on the last few months since I fell off the writing wagon once again.

October ended with a nice week long visit from my bestie. I wrote a whole post about it, I even had pictures!  And I accidentally deleted it and was so upset that I didn't re-post it. Nothing bothers me more than writing a whole long post only to lose it. I actually did it twice in October, which is why its taken me so long to decide to sit down and write again.
I also thought I had made a friend, a neighbor who I hung out with a couple of times. She's the come over we'll have coffee type. It seemed like we bonded over some issues we had in common. Then she started asking me to watch her kid for a few hours and I did. But then she started asking every Saturday night. Now I am the first to admit I don't have much of a social life but weekends are the only days I get to spend a few hours with Mikey due to our schedules. And lets not forget I work on weekends! I have to be up at 4 am. I am down to do you a favor once in a while but don't take advantage of my kindness. This misconception people have of us work from home people pisses me off. Just because I work from home doesn't mean I lay around all day. I work! My job isn't physically demanding but its draining mentally. And on slow days I probably do more that the average person. I clean my house,do laundry,  prep and or cook lunch and/ or dinner. And she's never once offered to pay me. Which was not the issue by the way but she didn't even offer.  I am so over trying to make new friends at my age, it just seems like everyone is about what you can do for them. Bitch please, I ain't got time for those games.

November also ended with a huge surprise. On Thanksgiving I called my mom after dinner. Dinner was again this year just me and Mikey his family is still tripping with there un-vitation. You don't invite someone you really want to have over the day before. This year his response was the best "absolutely not!" So I made a small dinner for two with all the fixings. I am learning though I did not make a whole bird, this year I made a stuffed turkey breast. I even baked a couple of mini pumpkin and apple pies." Anyhow during our conversation my mom asked me what I had cooked, so I told her and she says oh that sounds good! Save me a plate I will come over tomorrow." I laughed and said "yeah okay mom, I will be waiting" Mind you she lives in Texas currently. So continued on saying "I am serious I will be there tomorrow, I am on my way"  This time she sounded serious and I began crying like a baby. I was happy. She didn't stay with me but I got to spend a few days with her and she even went to dinner with me and Mikey. I couldn't have asked for a better way to end the year.

December was emotionally difficult and I had to make some tough choices for my own sanity. It's a process and I learning to let go a little bit at a time.
Anyway we decided to have a small Christmas, we only exchanged pj's and one gift each. We decided our goal of moving into a house next year is more important than going nuts on the holidays. Again we had dinner for two, his family went out of town. We got our un-vitation a few days before, and only because Mikey's brother had a medical emergency and we had to see them at the hospital.
Enough of that non-sense I am over that! A few days ago I got the news that my new temp position is not permanent!! There aren't enough words to describe how grateful I am!! I love my new position, no more dealing with crazy customers! Thank you Jesus!
For new years eve its going to be the usual just the two of us drinks and a charcuterie board. Dinner has not been decided yet, I am trying to talk Mikey into having my famous street tacos!

As far as new years resolutions those are being finalized and posted tomorrow ;)

Sunday, October 28, 2018

A beautifull morning...

Up before the sunrises, working in a  quiet candle lit room is my new normal. Some people think I am crazy for working such insane hours, and the old me would have agreed. But the me now, likes working while everyone else sleeps. Sure there are some days I hate myself when the alarms goes off, but who doesn't atleast once in a while. And of course we have no one to blame but ourselves for feeling that way. Staying up late and not getting enough sleep will do that to you everytime. Practicing daily gratitude this past month has really helped snap improve my mood everyday and stop a bad mood in its tracks.  This new position couldn't have come at a better time, I was really starting to hate my job.People and thier crazy unrealistic demands were getting to be too much for me. I wasn't sure how much long I would be able to do my job with out loosing it on someone. But thankfully my new position is giving me a break from daily statistics and killing my self for five stars. Sure I still deal with crazy unreasonable people but they can't rate me and are only pissed off because I  have the ability to make them feel stupid AF.
Of course not everything is perfect adjusting to this drastic time change has not been easy. But I really need to stop blaming my hours, its my own fault that  I haven't exercised in a few weeks. I can go right after work but I have choosen not too. honestly I've been lazy!
So if you haven't guessed by now I'm on this new journey to find peace with in my self, by being painfully honest with my self naturally. Accepting my part in all my past mistakes and letting go of them one by one. So how did I get here you might ask, well I just woke up they one day and realized I have too much baggage that I need to unpack and put away.